September 2010
17 posts
DAY 17
so i went to the gym for the first time in like 5 days? idk i lost track… finally weighed myself and i went down a little more but still not close to where i wanna be - hopefully by day 30, i’ll reach my goal and i can go and eat something yummy! hehe :)
confused
what you said yesterday really crushed me. like, my heart literally hurt. and idk why but i still wanted to talk to you after.. i told myself i dont wanna get myself into some stupid mess but i feel like it’s already a bit too late. i learned a lot from last nite and it made things harder for me. now im stuck in btwn and idk whether i should still wait or just go for it bcuz im not fully...
WORK sucked ass today. i hate how busy it is these days because school started. it’s not like get paid commission… i like it wen it’s nice and slow and i can just chill in my boss’ office and go on fb lol the 7 hours today felt like 20. wen my boss asked me to work an extra hour, i didn’t even think about it. i straight up said NO -_-
um yeah. totally over it. all...
NOCTURNAL 2010
Last nite was freaken AMAZING. I can still here the bass ringing in my ears lol. Thank you Chris for taking me! Even tho you Ditched me and I almost got lost.. wish it ended at 4 instead of 2 but I guess in a way it’s a good thing cuz you don’t feel like a zombie afterwards. I tried to get some sleep before work but failed now I’m cracked out and really irritated.
Is anyone...
Trust
Honesty, I thought you were one of my closest friends. I’ve never said anything about you and I hear that you talk shit on me. Wow. I don’t wanna be a buzzkill and call you out but seriously.. wtf. Don’t be surprised if I don’t talk to you for a while. I need time to think this shit over.
UGH
work was HELLA BUSY today. i hate how my work is right next to the theater! everytime class is out, they rush in to juice it up -_-
oh well. im just glad it’s over.. for today. i have to work the next 3 days :( and 5 days next week ><
i need to go talk to my advisor about classes but im so tired and lazy rite now. i have to wash my car but i just wanna take a nap..
tmrw is block...
Tell a girl she’s beautiful and she’ll believe it...
it's been a while
since i’ve felt like this. it’s scary and exciting at the same time. 나도 모르게 막 기분이 좋아지고그래. 지금 나혼자 좋아하고 상상해도 상관없어.. 그냥 예전처럼 맘아프지만 안으면 됬지뭐. 나랑 같은생각하길 바라는 맘도 있지만 지금은 여기서 만족해. 진도가 나가든, 안나가든.. 오랜만에 설레이네 ㅋㅋ 아직은 서로 잘모르니깐 어떻게 될찌는 모르겠는데.. well i know now forsure. i’m 150% over it. i deserve better.
second chance
I’m pretty sure we had this conversation before, about me not giving second chances and you said you were the same - that once you end a relationship with someone you wouldn’t go out with them again because there’s a good reason why you broke up with each other in the first place. honestly, wen you told me how u felt last nite i didn’t know what to think. i didn’t...
Day 5
Running 3 miles this morning with a slight hangover = stupidity + hardcore dedication. Weighed myself after my work out and I was pretty surprised. The numbers dropped a lot more than I expected.
So much stupid bs crap has been going on and I exploded ystrdy. My eyes are so swollen from crying. I don’t wanna show weakness to my friends or family so even wen it’s too hard jo handle...
Day 4
I can definitely tell that my stomach shrunk in the past few days so I don’t get as hungry anymore. I’m craving sam gyup sal tho.. lol
I was so hungry I was tempted to get Santana’s last nite after drinking but I forced myself to go to bed lol
I didn’t wanna get a beer belly so I didn’t play bp at all last nite. JUst sat at “Hanna’s island”...
Day 2
I failed. I got super hungry and ate half a bag of sunchips :( good thing it was the tiny ones… but still ><
woke up early today to go to the gym but that failed too cuz the rec was closed until 5pm for some trainee thing. I ended up running at the track cuz i already paid for parking but running in 90 degree heat didnt feel so good so after 2 miles, i came home and swam for a...
day 1
It’s only the first day and I’m already hating it. Hopefully I can resist all temptations and reach my goal!
Back to my “no eating after 7:30” rule..
FLUCTUATION
so.. i went to the rec and weighed myself for the first time in about 2 weeks and i was speechless. i knew i gained weight but i didn’t think it was THAT much :( i thought the scale might have been broken so i went on a different one but.. the number was pretty much the same *sigh
yeah so i have decided to go on a another diet. starting tmrw.. until oct 14. hopefully i reach my goal! i...
so easy to tell wen ppl lie to me. especially those i know fairly well… i dont understand why you have to lie about stupid little things -_- but it bugs me cuz i know ur not telling the truth. it might not seem like that big of a deal but to me, it all adds up and in the end ur just a big fat liar. im pretty sure u know wen i catch on cuz i question you and you either say “idk”...
Omfg I wasted so much gas just now driving in the parking structure looking for parking the past 29min. Fml. I hate rcc! Ugh. I ended up street parking… hope I don’t get a ticket.
I have a billion ppl IM me, text me, fb me about wen I’m gonna have a housewarming party. First of all, not all of u are invited. Esp those ppl who flaked wen I asked you to help us move. So stop...
